People say love is when you can’t breathe around that special someone, you can’t think, you can’t do anything… you’re just captivated by that someone.
But for me it was the complete opposite.
I couldn’t breathe eat think when she wasn’t around me. I couldn’t even smile nor focus on anyone.I didn’t care about anyone but her. Her, my whole life my first love my everything.
And the saddest part is that she didn’t know she was all that for me. I was a chicken. I will always be one when it comes to her. I didn’t and won’t ever have the courage to tell her.
Who’s her? My bad I didn’t make it clear perhaps. SHE is my best friend since five years. We met randomly clicked instantly. Since the day I met her my life changed we bonded on so many levels, we have so much in common it’s crazy. Our first year of friendship was beyond awesome; it was by far the best year of my life. And when I look back at it I regret not fully seizing it. It was more flirtationship .
But after that year it was the down fall 4 years and we’re drifting apart more and more, I barely talk to her now. I never told never will. But my heart will always be hers, my one and only.
Should I tell her? Should I end our friendship officially? Help, im lost numb and confused what should I do?